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timeout,

I'm sorry for not writing too much. Busy, busy.

My puppy is great, since we go for long walks and its warmer out:) He is growing so fast, cant believe it.
Biting is is favorite hobby I think, all he does is bite everything! I have bite marks all over my hands, but thank god he doesn't have big teeth yet.

 Me and Carter have been talking alot. I don't know whats up with that. I think I'm beginning to feel more than just friendly towards him and thats not good at all, I decided relationships are useless but that decision is probably going to change soon huh!
 We text each other like every single day and keep texting since 10am till about 12pm ( and I always feel super tired in the mornings lol). And we hangout a lot too which is great. I don't want to sound like a boy crazy teenager but theres probably no other way to put it.  I only wish I knew if he likes me or not. Damn, I sound stupid saying that! We will see I guess.

March break coming up! Cant wait:) No plans yet, but the thought of going to Italy next year for march break sounds amazing. It keeps me sleeping at night. OH and I have some new friends, whenever I get friend invites it makes me mighty happy, hahah.

   Anyhow, night!
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puppy!

AH. I'm so crazy tired this morning.
The party I went to last night was rather exciting but so many of my friends ended up puking so that wasn't good. I had to go over to Molly`s house since our plans go to go Taylor`s got ruined when her mother had to come get her since she was so sick.  Thank god Molly`s boyfriend was there and he was leaving same time we  were so he gave us a ride!

This is another party where I got to spend lots of quality time with Carter. We were walking around all night helping our sick friends, which actually wasn't bad at all surprisingly!

Later on today me and my daddy are going to get a Labrador Retriever puppy! I'm so excited, its the cutest little thing out there.  I think we should name him Charlie, I have no idea why but I've always wanted to name my dog that. Hopefully my parents feel the same way about that,lol

Well anyhow, I think I'll take a little nap since I barely had any sleep last night!
     Love you`s.
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I'm extremely tired today! Its rather unfortunate.

Tomorrow night I'm going to my ex boyfriends semi formal.. Crazy, I know huh! Well we aren't exactly eachother's dates or anything, and the reason I'm going is basically because I'm good friends with his sister but surprisingly enough he was the one who kindly offered to purchase the ticket for me. Don't get me wrong, we are still friends.. somewhat, but I hope he doesn't expect me to spend the entire night with him!!  Semi at my school wasn't too long ago and it was petty fun. My date was great(L).  Before semi me, Ben(my date), Jenn(one of my best friends) and Justin(her date) got together at Ben`s house and got ready together. It was exiting! Our semi was about 4 hours long and guess what, me and Benny spent the entire time together *giggle*.

Finally got my Hollister sweater which I ordered last week. Its amazing. I'm so anxious to wear it, I think I will wear it for my dance tonight:)

  Cheers.
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blahh.

Theres basically no words to describe my happynes right now. Ive got my report card and my average is surprisingly 81%.  I guess my dad is not going to kill me this time. Which means once again I can stay the spoiled brat that I am, and nothing is going to change that.

Last night I watched Premonition and that movie was something. I generally enjoy movies like that, but some parts were simply unneseseary. I also watched Vacancy and I loved it:) The ending was sort of unexpected, since I thought Luke Wilson was dead! Hope I didnt spoil the movie for you, in case you`ve never seen it before.

Whats with the weather outside!? Cant even do anything today. BLLAHHHHH
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unpredictions

Its me again. Don't be too shocked. I'm just bored out of my mind so there is nothing better for me to do except write.

This week is gonna go by so slow. Wanna know why? Well maybe because Friday is my buddy`s party. Finally. This was probably the longest wait ever. About 30 people are going and it seem pretty promising so far. Ive ordered some clothes from hollister and now I have to pray so they come in on time before the actual party. But more about that later.  One thing that interests me is, who is going to be hooking up with who. No actually I don't have problems. It's something I want to know and its also something people will be talking about long after the party is over.  I have no predictions for myself.  I don't want to engage in some kind of drunken "actions" since they are stupid and its something you don't need to do. 

Does having a bunch of friends who are dating make you feel depressed? Makes me pretty darn depressed. They always ditch you to have a little hangout with their BF's.  Its not fair at all, personally.  I just hope someday I can show them exactly what that will feel like. Not that I want to get into a relationship with anyone, but I just hope they see the other side of the river. Since I'm always on the opposite side. I'm not a hater. But today I feel left out. Maybe because one of my best friends chose to hangout with someone else instead of me, when I clearly told her I have nothing to do and we should get together. Well whatever. I'm "sorry" I don't do tabs even if someone will try to force me to do them. I'm sorry my life wont be over in 5 years or that I wont die of an overdose. I hope they do overdose.

So this was a little love note for my buddies. Keep on living your life to the fullest:)
LOVE
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single?, oh hello

Well well. Today I was planning on going out and getting myself a brand new journal. Thank god I stumbled upon this little website. It will save some trees hopefully.

I'm starting this not because I think it will become popular or  because I think people will actually consider reading this crap. I need this journal to sort of let everything out. Because I cant let it out anywhere else since most people cant be trusted with everything. Yes you have your  friends, who you can tell everything to, but you just never know how they feel about all that on the inside. Maybe they think you`re an idiot and are just being nice to you because of your social status. Its silly at times not to trust everyone, but can they actually be trusted? I guess they can, but not in this case. This time, this will be a secret for as long as I can hold it in of course.  What exactly am I holding in? My feelings, of course.  Not just any feelings, but my feelings for him. "Another guy crazy girl!" , you say, but I'm not. I promise.  Ive been trying to convince myself that, no, you don't like him! Not at all, he is not right for you and you should take those thoughts of him and throw them right out the window. I wish I could. That would be so much easier than actually dealing with it.  I wouldn't even mind it, if he felt the same way.  " Well you never know my dear, maybe he does secretly like you also!", you might insist. But don't try that. This time, I'm 100% sure its not the case.  So why does it always happen to me? Someone I care about does not care back. Am I ugly and not attractive? Thats not the case either my friends. I'm well liked by the opposite sex. By some handsome men, handsome men who I'm not emotionally attached to. I always go for the not sexy guy. The one who doesn't really have anything to offer. Why? Oh well you see, they are nice to me, I like them for who they are. Not for their looks, body or brain. Thats the five minute summary of my love life. My personal life. Does it interest you and make you wanna know more? Nope? I didn't think so. If  I were someone else I wouldn't read it either.

I forgive you for never wanting to return to this page. Its alright. I shall deal with it on my own, like I always do.
Best wishes.<3
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